I wish I knew What I'm Supposed to Do

"Sometime later, the voice in our heat dares to speak to us again, more insistently this time. Listen to me- there is something missing in all this. You long to be in a love affair, an adventure. You were made for something more. You know it."

--John Eldredge, "The Sacred Romance"

Yes, I am longing for the adventure. Our Pastor spoke on taking risks. An email came to me that said this:

If you do not cut the moorings, God will have to break them by a storm and send you out. Launch all on God, go out on the great swelling tide of His purpose, and you will get your eyes open. If you believe in Jesus, you are not to spend all your time in the smooth waters just inside the harbour bar, full of delight, but always moored; you have to get out through the harbour bar into the great deeps of God and begin to know for yourself, begin to have spiritual discernment.

Chambers, O. (1993). My utmost for his highest : Selections for the year.

I haven't been sleeping well. Waiting is so hard. What is it I am supposed to be doing with my life? What risk am I to take? What ministry is my calling? It was May 21 when MTM and I talked about buying a large house to turn into a B&B. THAT is crazy, a huge risk. But is it our calling? I'm not 100% sure. Not even 50%. I know its something we've always wanted to do.

I just wish I could be certain of what it is I'm supposed to do.